today missed svc.. due to me sick again.. and did not serve again.. haiz... bad stomache...

this few days was busy with friends and meet up for games....
Annie ask me a qns on the car.. "every-time u see victor not sian meh, you have been seeing him for like three days" i reply " yeah of cos sian lah..." but in my heart was thinking that time when i was very down and do not want to meet anybody.. Victor was there and he did something that shocked me and caused me to really understand the word " friendship". That day i know i lost my love but found a great friend.

Hope i can really remember it down the road.. i know i tend to forget it.. i am a person that really bad in relationship.. or i do not trust "relationship".. once bitten twice shy. so i tend to just make hi- bye friends.. of cos i have a few gd friends with me!.. Thanks GOD for them...
Coming to end of the year soon...

I want to take this time and say a BIG thanks you guys out there and being there when i need u all or not !!! haha!!

THANKS

Birthday summary

So busy recently... went to a lot of places.. been meet up with a lot of peoples...
wow got a lots of nice gifts..
here the break down:
2x shirts
1x pants
1x bag ( thanks CK for that)
1x sweater or windbreaker( i think) from ed hardy
1x Autoexe(exhust)
1x car model( Bugetti veryon)

Thank People!!!! LOve the gifts and time spend with you all...

been to places that bring old memories back... sob sob... ok nevermind me...

2 more days to Christmas

great day of makan and games

First thing first, Happy birthday to me!!!! yeah!!!

today went for cg dinner fellowship at Zhou Zhuang, eat a la carte buffet.. the food was good the fellowship was great...

After that when to play lan with the GUYS!!,, Left4Dead was a cool game, finally someone think of this Dawn of the dead's game.. kill the undead and kill them all.. ahha in the end only kern finish the game.. as howard , viz, and me is dead... was great hahah and yeah thanks Annie for the ice cream cake.. nice!!!!

till next year my frenz..... now for christmas!!!

Congrat Ben and Priscilla

Congrats Ben and Priscilla!!!! wow never knew Ben can sing so well on the wedding dinner..

Have a great marriage and Be blessed. Of cos have a lot of kids.. heard Ben want twins.. boy and girl.. jiayou !!!!

Being careful and reminded Ben not to forget things he still forgets to bring the important stuff.
I must say the the wedding was great.. .. Love the car mazda 2 yeah, and the Groom looking great in his no1 uniform and wow the Bride wedding gown.. Best so long so nice... not forgetting her high heelsssss ..

one wedding finished two more to go

thanks

been shopping on saturday and bought my blazer and stuff for ben and priscilla's wedding haha... spent amount up too 300 plus on stuff.. never know blazer so exp one.

been a great week since the Asia Conf... since i fall sick after it for two days.all my frenz say i work too hard.. take leave to fall sick,haiz... so busy with the Expo area.. like working as a "part-time DXO" . was helping the real DXO , "patrol" toilet and call for cleaners for "reinenforcement" "

still remember the last session... tearing down the stage when everyone is going home.. I must say the Sound ministry is the greatest, really !! the usher are great. the greeters are friendly ,but if the Sound ministry on" strike" then tv ministry wll have no sound for the church and the meeting will not that impactful i must say.. ahha very bias of me.

anyway next event !! Christmas!!! so fast end of the year.

work again... working at 4 am later.. till 10 am and will rush down for Asia Conf tmr morning

this few days.. was serving in Sound.. and going super early and leaving super late...

Fun , Fun and more fun.. good working with the guys and ladies in Sound.. and the DXOs!!!

of cos was doing so much work really miss a lot of the message.. but yeah i know it bad.. but yeah no choice i must say... we Sound Ministry are the pple that do the "behind" job.. hehe

"Pastor Ulf spoke of the life and love among the Father, Son and Holy Spirit that has been since before there was time. The Holy Triune continually invites mankind to draw to this unity so that the life of God can flow in and through them. All the stronger is the call for the Body of Christ to move in this degree of unity to impact this world in significant ways.

The life of God is in every believer through the Holy Spirit who dwells in us. With Him comes an infinite supply of power, wisdom, divine love, strength, joy and peace. When obstacles seem insurmountable, He gives us the faith and grace to overcome. When forgiveness is too hard for one to give, the Holy Spirit helps us in our weaknesses.

Deeper sensitivity, communion and an intimate relationship with a mighty God is what sets the church apart. It is the kind of church that will touch lives and leave a legacy in this world and for the generations to come.

In closing, Pastor Kong exhorted the people to let go of the ‘I’-factor, ie self-centredness, and begin to live a life for God and in God through the help of the Holy Spirit. Having the garbage out of our lives, the Holy Spirit can work more freely and mightily in us for God’s glory."

source- citynews.sg

Amen!!!!

updates

just blogging to say Hi ....anyway... the week has been quite tough... was busy with work and stuff was very sad when a fren had misunderstand me.. really now i must learn to draw the line.. and Now AC is coming... so yeah... took leave for AC yeah!!!!but have to miss wed nite which is the opening and friday nite session... have test on that both day.... really miss the good old sch days...

but yeah adults life is diff and demanding...


ok time to sleep..*yawn*

blogging b4 work

hmmm.. i am now at singtel com centre, if u know where is it... so tired... sleep last then 4 hours. Now waiting for the client to come.. doing yesterday job which was supposed to be done... but server having problem.. looking around me, nobody is here.. cars are few in orchard at this time.. but daylight came up just nice and look calm and blue...

while blogging, was thinking at the prayer meeting that happening around singapore now... must be cool and fun.. did not go for anyone of the meeting yet..

my fren, Adrian say that i blog too short and straight to the point. i believed that blogging is supposed to be short and and hit the nail on the spot . right? if not then how to express the thoughts fast...

my dear dog, Pepper. having the itch again... getting serious... fur is like felling off .. arhhhhhhh
Need to bring her to vet asap.

hmmm have a great day ahead.... haha (talking to myself)

Arise and Build and time loss

finally the Arise and Build is here... and i have pledge the amount that i did not prepare at all....
maybe too little that i think ... But hope that is the amount that is really i need to give...

this few weeks has been busy busy... was looking at my weeks ahead.. realise i had not much time... going to end of year.. and i am still "hollow"

giving time to pple does not help, spending time in ministry does not help.. giving time to cg does not help..

maybe is the beginning that started too late , that why...

recently i found my self getting crude and crude in words, turning "bad" like a rotten banana..

I do not believe in heaven... but i believe in angels... I believe in Hell...

those of the words that was really in my mind...


watching her sitting there... haiz... got to shake it out of my mind..

worst cannot be happing rite?

so bored... reservice for the 3 rd day today and did nothing of use... haha.. i think i ma getting fat for all the canteen breaks.... and tomorrow also same... haiz... wasted of my time... and my laptop die... crap.. can no watch my show anymore.. why!!! why!!!


now worst is my neck is painful and having a headache...

motorshow 2008

Asia Pacific Rally Champ 2006 - Cody Crocker
A protype car that can submerge in water and go on land and is a Loctus!!!!!







as requested by my friend.. i upload a video of the stunt that was perform at the Asia Motorshow 2008 at suntec... It was awesome.. sorry Howard supposed to go with u... next time ok?

It is important to find a world that belong to us

Life is meaningful only when we find this world

JB for the weekend

finally went to JB for the weekend... must say hard work for the pple to travel up and down to work in singapore. I can see the queues in the custom is a killer.. I find gates at the custom to high tech for old pples.. maybe they should add chinese characters in it.. And the malaysia side ... so messy.... all the queues go the diff ways, one min u know u standing left side.. it move down the line and become right side !! that crazy....

aside form the 2 hrs waiting time in custom...
was fun to go with my friends... and shopping... and eating... the shopping parts is for my lady friends.. lol.. there sell tons tons of shoes.... and food was cool , eat in an alley with just makeshift tables and chairs.. but the food tastes same same..

then after all that went to the checkpoint and it started to rain... and eveything start all over again

back in singapore

hmmm after a long trip to my church summer retreat at Sofitel resort.. was so busy at the place.. was doing Sound with Victor finally some action... learn a lot from the old veteran of Sound....

learn to be sharp and more sharp... first day i made a terrible mistake.. pass a batteryless mic to pst ... when want to replace.. i pass a 2nd batteryless mic... crap... was feeling wanting to go home..

but this camp was a great learning exp for me...

yeah so when will be the next time???

Disheartened

Exam is officially over... hope i get the marks that i want...

yesterday was doing the networking paper.. wow i was sad to say .. i think i crap it... did not bring calc that one thing and forget how to use the methods.. i blame myself for not doing the due revision for it.. It ALL my FAULT!!!

pressure at Home... cause me to lost that focus..


on a Side note, COngrats to Victor have a newborn son name Alexander, short for Alex .. haha same name as me.. pray he have a diff route i had.... i Know Victor will be a good father... and karen will be a great MUM...

Mint Toy musuem

Happy belated National day...

on that day i went to see a Musical "Special"
Great show i must say.. *cheers* the kids rocks and th ID kids can sing very well.. can see that they put in a lot of hard work... i so love the songs that was sangs in the Musical, i bought the cd.... have a great time saw a lot of friends there form JAMS.. miss their company a lots....

after the show.. Annie decided to go to the Mint Museum of toys



TinTin
she try to act as SNOw white with the seven dwarfs... haha
this is the "real one" hehe

wow high place....

in that place it bring back a lot of my old childhood memories... some of the toy i have b4...
now it worth good money now..
wasted should not throw them away

HSM on ice tour

a belated post..

on tues 5 aug .. i went to a musical. Call..





was my first musical.. and it is on ICE






and it rocks man





heard the songs that was sung in the HSM1 and HSM2.. cool...


of cos.. there are thousand of kids and teachers with student too...

Thanks jaseyln and katerin for the tixs...

and yeah KAi kai for the cotten candies... lol

What the dash in ur life

TOday was FOP last day.. i went there ,just thinking i was another FOP that i been to so many time.. EVEN now got new bands in the FOP.. it did not bring much excitements in me.. but never the less i enjoy it.. even brought the CD... Is the message that really make me thinking.. THe qns What did you do in your life on earth.. when GOD ask.. this qns really ring in my mind .. so on ur Tombstone other then the year of ur birth and death of ur year.. The DASH in the middle is important.. that was told in the message.. i look back this two years what i had been doing... what was in my mind all this time so foolish... still thinking, still pondering.. still have that small little hope.. but of cos the reality is difference from dream. so i decide to take that ring off my car.. yes i did it i took it out ( i can heard the people cheering for me..) time to move another step i told myself.. slow but yeah still moving ahead guys... felt glad i did that.. that why i want to write it out to remind myself the step i took..


-alex

being exploring this website call improv everywhere.com

Improv Everywhere causes scenes of chaos and joy in public places. Created in August of 2001 by Charlie Todd, Improv Everywhere has executed over 70 missions involving thousands of undercover agents. The group is based in New York City

CoOl stuff they do.. man we need this in our city... will inject fun and laugh.. and joy...

Have FUn for this clips
Frozen Grand central


Food Court musical

Similarity or Concident

http://www.youtube.com/v/iGDHIZcuqlI

http://www.youtube.com/v/ZH1Ckcfj_Nc


hmm was looking at this two videos...

take a look...

new hp

i got a new hp.. finally after 3yrs... got myself a SE G900 instead.. actually waiting for the Iphone 3G.. which i think will not come in that soon , when launch it will be tied to singtel, which i hated... and the feature is not that good.. since the first launch of it .. got problems liao haha..

can read up on this http://www.networkworld.com/community/node/29895


anyway use the G900 for about one week... not bad hehe.. a bit slow but yeah for me as i type too fast... G900 got touchscreen features.. yeah and 5 mp lol.. hmm now really thinking of way to "mod" my G900 to perform better and app to load in... since i got 1 gb of space...


I am looking for a Dog groomer for Pepper.. if you or anyone have lobang please sms me or call me...

10 promise to my dog

1. Please have patience when dealing with me.

2. Place your trust in me. Through good and bad times, I will always be by your side.

3. Remember that I have feelings too… just like you.

4. Whenever I don’t listen to what you say, believe me there is a reason.

5. Talk to me. I may not understand all your words but I understand your voice when it speaks to me.

6. Let’s not fight. Remember that I could hurt (bite) you but have chosen never to do so.

7. Even when I grow in age (and probably grow slow or weak), please be kind to me.

8. My life may not last as long as yours. Please make every second we spend together count.

9. You may have other friends, other activities. Please remember that for me, there’s only you.

10. When I’m about to leave this world, promise me you’ll be by my side. Remember all the times we shared and remember always that I love you.

It turned out to be a very relatable story. There were several issues highlighted in the movie that gave viewers some food for thought. For instance, family against career, parents’ expections against child’s personal ambition. It also touches on human nature, by showing the actress losing interest in the dog as she grew older and neglecting it when she became more occupied with other things in her own life.

I’m sure there have been times we get so focused in our own lives, be it studies, ambitions, relationships, we suffer some guilt in neglecting the loved ones around us. When you neglect your friends, you may feel better by thinking that he or she probably has got some other friends to hang out with. When you neglect your family members, you may think well, they still have support from one another. But when you neglect your pet, there is no consolation to it as the pet only has you. It’s a good idea to reflect the ten promises from the story, as they are applicable not only to our ‘most loyal friend’, but our human ones as well.

HI people.. if you are still reading it... so i update a bit..

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides


just right to express what i want to say...

pepper

i got a dog... name her pepper...
she is a bundle of joy.. i must say... hehe.. she keep want to bite my hand but of cos now she know me as her owner.. but hmmm still having trouble in asking her to come... haha.. need to train her in obedience been Cambodia and back and did not post photos... will when i am more free...so how life for everyone? really miss my trip there... but yeah learn a lot at the mission cum outreach trip..

Singapore's children really is so blessed....

cannot wait for another trip!!!

it been one yr or 365 days.. i remember this day always.. this day i was change in my thoughts and my logic. even when i hear it and saw the sms.. i was thinking what did i do wrong to have this .. from saddeness to grief and anger.. that was the feeling at that time. of cos that was then.. now just memories that flashes back to me.. remind me and telling me to forget it, not worth it. letting go and moving forward is most common phase i heard for at least till now... feeling empty..

just my thoughts for the night...

Let God forgive me....

cool idea nice hard work

business as usual

been very busy this few week as i am doing up a new blog site for myself so no time to update this blog... and preparing for the trip to cambodia... yeah finally going an asia country that i did not go... planning next year go japan since got good lobang...

hehe... anyway... i missed my building fund.. my boss ask me why cannot finish it? i think the reason behind it is i pledge with a wrong heart... .. or just crap lah...

haiz.. now i feel not there and not here..

Sad day today as my " yang meh meh" has been disfigured. i want to beat up that guy who did this to my car.. he scratch all four doors.. so pain why this kind of people exist. GOD will do me right!!! haiz below is the pic to show the damage...








of cos that not the reason that i am sad... been moody this few days.. since sunday.. i did not want to see but saw finally with my own eyes. victor will know what i mean.. God set me free!!!! need your freedom!!!

Amazing new breed

time for a lot of reviews.. and i did no know that my insurance plans is not that sound.. need to re-plan and check again..
just like what Pst Tan say do not procraste, need to stop procrastination .. easy say then done..
but need to start somewhere rite? but i always think that my "problem" is not so easy to solve.. try hiding, try running, try facing it, try acting nothing happen, try busyness to cover it.. Maybe it cannot be solve at my level now.. it make me frustered.. and more tired


so must i wait longer or who can tell me how?? or just it wll go away..

Just got back home from a long drive... went driving around on the road again.. this time real slow... feeling the breeze... yeah yeah was feeling emo again...

was thinking of crap stuff and really do not know want to do and no one to turn to talk. having silly thoughts. if this not like that, how it will be. blah blah blah blah blah

Feel like i am bursting inside, and do not want to show to others. The wall inside has lock me in again.. so small inside, so dark..

God help me!!!!

man was a long weekend for me... let see.. my car tyre give me problem again... now it punctured two tyre on the left side.. wow power one week two time how lucky can u get !#@$#$... struck in a place and do not know what to do .. Thank GOd .. got people offer to help me.. and got the numbers that i need.. in the end... wasted 3hrs.. of cos i was with a friend and thanks for keeping me company till help come.

The total damage on the tyres is $430 ...

haiz.. like that wasted the cash.. which i can spent on my camera.... and the trip i am going to plan..yeah going overseas.


now i am dry dry as a dry up well..

back to really save up now...

blog blog blog blog blog

in the meantime try this while i try to blog

flat tyre

i had my first flat tyre... wow it was loud went it go off.. and when i look at the rear mirror thinking that i hit something on the road... of cos i do not know.. but when i move off again.. weird sound was heard " ti.. tick tick tick"
haha i thought my suspension was having problem so went in to MM as so near my office and waited for 10 mins was getting late to go to client side.. then he look at my rear tyre.. he say low psi.then taking a closer look a metal rod was sticking out. Arhhhh that the cause of the sound.so they advice me go do patching up.
so when the guy took out the metal rod.wow is was at least 10 cm long.wow was think who will throw this on the road and i suay suay hit it...then the guy say must buy new tyre... WOW double shock... then he started to say his package this and that.. cost about 600, then i say let me think about it ..so was think of Poh heng for tyres.. but no choice i went to my client side.. was done around 7pm . Went down to poh heng as it give the best rates for tyres and ask my frenz kerk to join me becos i know nuts about tyres.. Poh heng was at AMk ave 10,a place that i missed haha

To cut the story short in the end did not do anything to my tyre.. now still monitoring the tyre

haiz crap...

Busy to forget it

need to be busy to forget.. that what help me.. or else i think too much..

just a random qns:
If one day your best fren is enemy that you have to face and u have the ability to kill him or her to save yourself or for a greater cause, will you do it? or will you wait? what will you do?


maybe i think too much.. or just that inside is twisted too much

today mark the end of my 1st ICT In-camp Training..

yesterday 7 am was the start of my BCTC and Base camp training.. it end today at 130pm.. and i slept of 1hr... all my Sgt.. say "wow u did not sleep at all.. everything see u walk there and there.. doing stuff... so serious...".. i just smile.. in my mind ICT is not most of it... Anyway .. yeah!!!!! finally it is finish... till our XO say Oct have another ICT .. WHy Why why.. so fast..

most of the time it was fun, have fun with my PC 2 mates and section 3... will miss "Sleeping GOD" -where he can sleep anywhere and anytime.. "Song IC"- always make us laugh..and his funny drills.. of got lots more of funny characters/ people in the section.

will hope it will not come so fast and will catch up with u guys soon!!!


hmmm need to sleep now... finally the "siao on" is tried...

today at service learn about servant- hood... in the Depth, Height, Width and Length..

really must serve people in the area that i lack...

need the promotion.. huat ahhh!!!

when pastor ask who want to be a preacher.. Evangelist... i wanted to stand up.. but i ask myself really?? is that your calling??

anyway sometime i think too much and too deep.

tmr is Range and Range and More Range in my re-service...

really do not know what to write... sorry to make all of you read this crap...

keep looking at my blog.. and time for a change of the skin... so will keep looking for a new one... hope to create a new one... ANY help?

hmm still in my reservice mode.being doing a lot of new things.but still hope it end soon and can get back to work.


mood been up and down. when it get quiet then it get louder..
but still thinking.. still pondering sometimes even it hurts. really want it to go away.. get out of my head!!!!

first i want to Congrats.. to my buddy KERN for his ROM today on 7 march 2008..
finally he got married.. know him for so long..since i know him at my sec sch till now.. long rite!!! Now at a blink of eyes he getting married liao.. Bro , have fun and really take care of ur wife , Faith. She will be a good companion for you and a good lover.. so Love her as u know best. will miss the days we run in the race together.. getting scold at the same time and cry too..

really cherish our friendship.... Sorry i cannot be there.. got reservice(ICT) crap rite..


feeling sad and happy.. mixed feeling...

Sun and Choir singing the Olympics Anthem.






Phoenix: click here


can see familiar faces????

jiaiyou jiayou

wee hours blogging...

was reading people's blog.. and seem that people are looking for something and really believe in it.. of course it make me think ... and really feel life is so much more loud and quiet in the same time.. loud in the voice of people around me shouting their views and quiet in my heart to hear GOD's voice..

really do not understand, why i am still angry or sad?.. ask myself what u really want?
in the eyes of people what am i ??? it really does not matters now... now matters is Here in my life . where am i... maybe becos now i am in a crossroad.. when i finally pick myself up now.. going to a new CG and thinking of a new ministry.. being christian for so long really does not prepare me well for this..
in cg learn on Faith, Faithfulness, Fruitiness. yeah sometimes think that i need faith so much now and faithfulness has weaken and no fruit now..
my church mate say take time .. not to rush... sometimes i really want to be back normal again real quick.. real fast... see that joy that i misplaced

looking in the past for answer or advice? just silent.. no sound .. no voice...
Present so confused...
future unknown...

so in the end TRust GOD ... is it the right way ?

a lot of thoughts to say.

i agreed with people when they feel neglected by their bf or gf, what can they do? do u think they want to neglected or make the other halves feel that way... of cos not. sometimes i think is the communication that break down caused that and you keep quiet and did not voice out you expect the other half to know.. then it soon will go down the drain..Thinking you are giving space to him/or her.. crap .. relationship is not giving space .. being together is stepping into each other spaces and making the best of it and really influence it. Two space become one space.. so what can i say do it before u let it go.. try harder to press in... never give up.. but if there is "unforseen" things happen then what can i say

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. that is what the bible says.. of cos it hard to do then preach.. but WE are human !!!

every action we as human do will affect others even u like it or not.. and if u do not want people to not judge u for the action then do not do it .. Really i was in that shoe b4 haha!! that hard i can say..

Self righteous is not righteous at all.

today was tired as it was monday!!! haha monday blue... last week was a power feel week, overnite prayer meeting and pm after sun svc. so tired.. but was great.. long time did not go pm liao.. was good but haiz still i cannot maintain it.

My fren adrian got infected with a worm in his laptop.. and he cannot solve it so ask me to take a look, thinking the worm was the same worm with i solve that time. yet it was NOT!!!. now back to the drawing board.

was walking hme.. saw the playground near my house.. remember tat got a person waited for me so long there for me once.. then i started to feel the hurt and pain.. then i smiled with tears...

what hurt the most i ask?

Hurt so bad

the mv so similar to someone's situation I know...

tired.... very tired...

haiz...

EXAm has finished... holiday!!!!!!

haha still got work... anyway hope i can clear this paper... try my best liao... so Let GOd do the rest...

finally got break form sch....
so let have a good break.. and really get myself on track...

this few days, thinking about maths and laptop... think till cannot sleep...

so tired but cannot sleep... that why so moody and bad temper...

exam today...

tired...

stressed...

keep talking to myself....

Standing up...

being so busy this few days..is CNY...

i started to pack the "stuff"... while packing found vows and promises.. tears came and smiles too... was holding it so hard did not want to give up, being trying very hard... so hard so hard, really hard that it affected me in a lot of ways,in which i do not want or wanted to be.

Maybe you are asking why still so emo? haiz take time lah..

i do not understand... but one day i will know..


so i keep telling myself to endure.

Cest' la vie

was a long day today... got kick-off meeting in the morning.. my NYP exam in the evening.. Company dinner in the nite and Howard birthday in the nite too.. wow.. amazed that i did all that today... of cos i know that u are not interested in this..

well today i have a talk with my two spiritual bosses (the two V's)... finally i get to talk to them.. i feel better... really in time u need support is hard to find.. but when u have it, it good to know that they have a listening ear for you...

was thinking must i really be like this for rest of my walk with GOD.. like a backslider... this i been battling for very long... after the incident i really cannot stand up...

But i as my leader say.. man greatest fall is letting his emotion rule him..I know what to do and what to say.. but i afraid to step out... as they say.. it take TIME...
yeah hoping Time will help me.. so i am just looking at time now..

so lets Endure!!!!!!

arhh i wanted to kill that person.. but really hope he is good to her...

really.. i am not lying... crazy inside

t is painful to know the truth from what u see and not what u hear from her directly & honestly.

certain things in life it is not when we wanna let go, it can be so easy too cos that thing or person is precious to us.

This is a really accurate personality test. I got the link from someone's blog. Click here to do the test.



Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.



So any comments???

"lost" dog

hiaz.. just got a call from my friend saying the shetland sheepdog found the original owner.... that means.. i lost a dog..... well hope the owner really take care of him...
really hate to see the dogs putting to sleep... owners did not really take care of their dogs.. and got tired of them.. the same old story, no time. no body to take care..., going overseas, haiz... lame lame lame LAME..

One day i will get my dog...

one day..

C'est la vie

C'est la vie a French phrase meaning "That's life"


That's life... what it mean to me?.. mean to u? People been finding the meaning life for years or even whole lifetime... yet then can miss it when they see it..or when they have what other people do not have and they still say they have not arrive yet, wanting more...

Leaving a legacy, Help to save a life, Fight a war, Know GOD, Do the things u like,

will all this help or they are just shapes and size on people's definitions of life..

Find the one that suit yourself...

For me... being i a circle for very long, still in a circle.. what outside my circle still cannot see clearly....


C'est la vie

today was my resting day at hme... later having a maths exam later.. but yesterday was sick sick sick...high fever.. running nose...haiz... was so tired and painful..

and keep swallowing the boring medicine... over and over again.. was thinking why no body feed me medicine.. once i had one person that did that.. i miss her .... miss her....

maybe i will meet u again.. but now is just a blank

i was sick and i went sun svc... that was strange of me... or i must say uncommon of me to do it.. since i had not being in sun svc for like fews weeks. the feeling was great.. to see my friends once again..

hope i can get it back... Take care


Ces't la vie

Went for a dog-show in expo on sunday.. saw the agility of the dogs... Cool..

went to meet the Foster of the Shetland Sheepdog... she give me a interview and warnings..

Having a dog is big commitment ... and of cos the fun.. can bring him out and walk and run and swim ...

some pic is taken





After that went for a swim with kingsley and FIFI ...
FIFI is abandon GR(Golden Retriever) she was put up in a pet shop for 5 years... when found she has a open wound on her cheeks... haiz.. but now in a foster home.. Hoping a good soul will adopt her
IF u want to adopted her... leave me a msg...

today went for sat svc... actually was going a fren bday party after svc..

i was late... worst i went to the wrong place....


so really sorry my dear friend... i did wanted to go ur bdday ...

so give up and when watch movie with my fren at PS instead... really sorry...

did not want to call u becos i know u will be busy.. and a happy day for u... anyway HAppy birthday !!!! too early rite hahah


take care ..

misunderstand...

accused...

tired with people...

lies....

tech news

Apple have a new macbook call macbook air.. read more here macworld 2008

and watch this funny video of bill gates last day

was driving around.. mind was blank.. but yet i drove myself to the place that give me memories.. was laughing at myself again.. asking why i am here? funny.. feel foolish.

i do not understand why i went there.. and why had this thought, maybe is just that i feel better when i am there.. will bring back happy memories even sad ones..

really do not know how to say it out.. writing down just give me a sense gladness...

to remind me that i am not crazy ...

today .. went for cg for the new year...and svc...

at svc learn about forgiveness.. people always tell me to forgive and forget.. and Pst Tan was right.. it is hard to forget things that hurt u that much.. he offer a 2nd choice is to forgive and let God change it around for your good..

if i can do that, then best.. actually i still find myself struck..

recently my words that i say all not that nice any more.. so less interact with people less conflict that for the best..
so if i have nothing to good to say.. best i shut up...

D-day plus 7.. being 7 days after the new year began..

Still in the process of finding my goals for this year... hope to set it right and do it right..

Went for sat service.. Nowdays when i go service.. it is nice to be alone... i mean sit there no distraction... the feeling is best... being too noisy inside.. like lost in a maze..

Saw a lot of things happen.. My grandaunt had a conditon call Dementia ... and have a mild stroke

Found this in the net on Dementia

Are you or a loved one experiencing any of the following?

• Memory loss that affects your job or lifestyle
• Difficulty performing familiar tasks, such as cooking, driving, paying bills on time
• Problems with language, such as forgetting common words
• Disorientation to time or place, including getting lost
• Poor or decreased judgment
• Constantly misplacing things
• A change in mood or behavior
• A change in personality
• Loss of initiative

These symptoms may indicate a memory disorder or dementia such as Alzheimer disease.

Now she is living in a Hospice...we try to take care of her.. but i know that place will give her a better care and attention.. of cos we should not just leave everything to the hospice personnel...

must find time to visit her.

happy new year

Happy new year...

people ask me about what resolution.. so it make me thinking.

then i did a Research(not in order)

• Lose Weight
• Pay Off Debt
• Save Money
• Get a Better Job
• Get Fit
• Eat Right
• Get a Better Education
• Drink Less Alcohol
• Quit Smoking Now
• Reduce Stress Overall
• Reduce Stress at Work
• Take a Trip
• Volunteer to Help Others

this are not bad ideas...

disclaimer: above are OTHERS pple ideas

but what i want is to be HAPPY... i know it simple.. but being happy is harder then u think..