blogging

my my my... blogging... seem that like a very old tech.... seem like the world has change to a fast pace and high info "now" time.. info must be now current...

blog will become like writing letters... going in to the history...

but just like writing letters, blogging is here to stay... it useful and really give a space of the big wide internet space that belongs to you...really yours...


so really miss the good old blogging craze....

note to self

maybe is good to really just write here and really ask myself...



did i do wrong again in the relationship... why pple will react that way.. maybe is just a failure in my part.. it happen to me.. really was feeling lost becos of the mail and stuff... wat my expectation? wat am i thinking... of cos i want to do it of cos o want to make it happen.. maybe just maybe... the "shadow" came back... hiding away , keep quiet and waiting.. you say i do not bother... really... then in the first place why i sms , why want to arrange a meet up..... somthing just crop up and i cannot make time.. and i get a "death sign" haiz...............

Tink Tink

work work, been so busy and really no time to blog... was thinking to close this blog soon... but is just a thoughts... since nobody really see the blog... i think is just a place for me to say words and really talk.... hahahaha


ok... let me think........ Ooo time files , been two months... how do u feel? hmmmm fast? slow? or just the same...


haiz...

so randomize of me

For you

昨天晚上我又梦见你
在梦里我看见很美的东西
可能是在睡前想过你
才会梦见你

在梦里
我常常寻寻觅觅寻找着你
是梦而已

在现实里我曾经问过自己是否爱你
还是个游戏

我想要看见你的眼睛
听见你的声音
不管多小声我会用心地听
不管多小声多小声
我也会用心用意在意地听

我想要看见你的眼睛
听见你的声音
不管多小声我会用心地听
不管多小声多小声
因你的声音
在我心
是最为动听

listen....

wanted to share this great song.. since i grab from my good fren!!! weiling....

was sick for few days... but also being take care by someone... really touch my heart...

feel so love but in the other hand feel so bad.. becos i did not give a proper answer ...

really do not know how and what will it be.. feel crazy inside.... feel like telling the answer to her but can't.. why?!!!!!!


haiz....

Must pray!!!!!

i feel so bad and really not sure... this time is it for real? or just let it pass ...

too late for me i supposed....

Earth Hour 2009

Support Earth Hour!!!! Do your part!!!

mindless words

hmm.. work work.. now still working at Rabobank.. doing some installation.. yesterday have a talk with my boss, he reminded me again on doing my self research in my work.. in other words.. upgrade my skill sets..

Results are out: i got C, C, B haha ccb sound bad... not bad lah for last min studies...

recently being taking steps to move on... but everytime i want to, i will hold back or hestiate on things i want to do and will feel that step what it where it will lead to.. afraid will lead down the same road really afraid... sometime i feel my mouth just too big... but i just need to, do not care or push through . if no pain how to learn right? Right?

i ask myself, why will things be come this way, and i realised that i still not able to change to the person i set for myself to change . not here or there.. disappointed in myself..

at least this week , i have a talk out with a "clueless" fren of mine.. Thanks her for being there.. and really thanks for her understanding..

there a lot of chatters recently in my life. sometime i feel why so noisy ... need to clear my mine... think am i worth it , am i really want to get in to this ........
need to think

feb

time flies .. .. end of feb soon. this month ended so fast... of cos it ended with great "fine" month
got fine.. i total up my fines and got a sum of $160 man how did i park my car !!!!! there goes my GST rebates.

yes exam started fast and ended fast, really thanks God...

feb was valentine's day season so how did all of you spent time with. I went ikea with my parents haha.. of cos i did sent flowers ....taking that step again

anyway march coming. sch holidays now yeah!!! discover a great place to be.. when need to be alone.. and be away from all the noises...

now in work, learning new things again.. time to pick up the thinking cap and really learn..

on a side note:

COngrats Junjie and Elly!!!! got engaged!!!! wooooo soon will hear wedding bells..

old feelings with new things

was revising on the exam ,really hope can pass this time.,so hard but back of the mind is thinking of the holidays that is coming, sometimes i think i did not choose this course,but i know that this course that i take is not by chance, it was someone that encourage me, although that someone is not around with me , but in her place others people had filled in. the void is big , but is getting smaller.

So all the best for today exam!!!!

wanted to stop cursing... hate to use words that hurt people , i remember i was not like that. what happen?

is it i reach a point that i cannot stop or i do not bothers, really really tired... wanted to stop ministry , wanted to stop going cg, wanted to stop going places. wanted to stop and just stay back and behind. of course this are funny thoughts, negative thoughts. should not be in the mind at all

in the end

so fast one week as passed . yesterday was "ren" day. Happy "ren" day 人日....

for the chinese new year period , my company ask us to take "leave" and so i have one week of leave.. and so stay home and watch my cable.. yes i got cable liao.. haha . too much channel... do not know wat to watch and yes i fell sick on chinese new year.. was not feeling well through out the week and since i just recover from flu .

And now i need to prepared for my exam in Feb.. finally exam is here.. need to dive in the books again.. exam is next week start.. fast right?

ok.. need to work now...

Chinese new year eve

wow time fly it was new year now so fast Now is Chinese new year.. the year of the ox.. moooooooooooooooooooooo


Forecast for the year financially is so bad... even the budget was working for it.. to preserve job...
so i think i must work harder.. learn faster.. and get promoted!!!! yeah!!! then yeah i can get my new EVo.....

Saw the "love matters" the movie by jack Neo.. nice and funny.. but the ending abit off.. anyway was great... good laugh..

hard to be me

recently a friend of mine just got attached. was shock but happy to hear the news.. knowing that the guy, she choose was a great guy... and I send them my blessing !!! Sometimes is weird that the people that close with you for years and u do not considered them as partners at all then one day become couple.. strange right... becos i always thought that ladies are looking out for friendship then other stuff.. , then guy is the opposite of it hahaha yeah that right that the normal guy brain function..i think being friends first is important and really then if go part 2 then ok lor.. haha but now for me is just really not ready into this... maybe is the past that i carry or i just cannot look away from my "sins" . or just plain scared and afraid to really to get into a relationship.. Hard to be me...

That's life

Happy 2009

Happy 2009 !!!

be happy!!!!! that the word to use.. although did not have a great year..... anyway my work place is not getting better.. here cut there cut... everything cut.. hope do not cut me away.. Just be thankful now got a job i must say!!! Thank GOd!!!... but i need a new hp!!!! why like that!!!

raining now.. new year raining....

New year , new goals, new things to try!!!