Just got back home from a long drive... went driving around on the road again.. this time real slow... feeling the breeze... yeah yeah was feeling emo again...

was thinking of crap stuff and really do not know want to do and no one to turn to talk. having silly thoughts. if this not like that, how it will be. blah blah blah blah blah

Feel like i am bursting inside, and do not want to show to others. The wall inside has lock me in again.. so small inside, so dark..

God help me!!!!

man was a long weekend for me... let see.. my car tyre give me problem again... now it punctured two tyre on the left side.. wow power one week two time how lucky can u get !#@$#$... struck in a place and do not know what to do .. Thank GOd .. got people offer to help me.. and got the numbers that i need.. in the end... wasted 3hrs.. of cos i was with a friend and thanks for keeping me company till help come.

The total damage on the tyres is $430 ...

haiz.. like that wasted the cash.. which i can spent on my camera.... and the trip i am going to plan..yeah going overseas.


now i am dry dry as a dry up well..

back to really save up now...

blog blog blog blog blog

in the meantime try this while i try to blog

flat tyre

i had my first flat tyre... wow it was loud went it go off.. and when i look at the rear mirror thinking that i hit something on the road... of cos i do not know.. but when i move off again.. weird sound was heard " ti.. tick tick tick"
haha i thought my suspension was having problem so went in to MM as so near my office and waited for 10 mins was getting late to go to client side.. then he look at my rear tyre.. he say low psi.then taking a closer look a metal rod was sticking out. Arhhhh that the cause of the sound.so they advice me go do patching up.
so when the guy took out the metal rod.wow is was at least 10 cm long.wow was think who will throw this on the road and i suay suay hit it...then the guy say must buy new tyre... WOW double shock... then he started to say his package this and that.. cost about 600, then i say let me think about it ..so was think of Poh heng for tyres.. but no choice i went to my client side.. was done around 7pm . Went down to poh heng as it give the best rates for tyres and ask my frenz kerk to join me becos i know nuts about tyres.. Poh heng was at AMk ave 10,a place that i missed haha

To cut the story short in the end did not do anything to my tyre.. now still monitoring the tyre

haiz crap...

Busy to forget it

need to be busy to forget.. that what help me.. or else i think too much..

just a random qns:
If one day your best fren is enemy that you have to face and u have the ability to kill him or her to save yourself or for a greater cause, will you do it? or will you wait? what will you do?


maybe i think too much.. or just that inside is twisted too much

today mark the end of my 1st ICT In-camp Training..

yesterday 7 am was the start of my BCTC and Base camp training.. it end today at 130pm.. and i slept of 1hr... all my Sgt.. say "wow u did not sleep at all.. everything see u walk there and there.. doing stuff... so serious...".. i just smile.. in my mind ICT is not most of it... Anyway .. yeah!!!!! finally it is finish... till our XO say Oct have another ICT .. WHy Why why.. so fast..

most of the time it was fun, have fun with my PC 2 mates and section 3... will miss "Sleeping GOD" -where he can sleep anywhere and anytime.. "Song IC"- always make us laugh..and his funny drills.. of got lots more of funny characters/ people in the section.

will hope it will not come so fast and will catch up with u guys soon!!!


hmmm need to sleep now... finally the "siao on" is tried...

today at service learn about servant- hood... in the Depth, Height, Width and Length..

really must serve people in the area that i lack...

need the promotion.. huat ahhh!!!

when pastor ask who want to be a preacher.. Evangelist... i wanted to stand up.. but i ask myself really?? is that your calling??

anyway sometime i think too much and too deep.

tmr is Range and Range and More Range in my re-service...

really do not know what to write... sorry to make all of you read this crap...

keep looking at my blog.. and time for a change of the skin... so will keep looking for a new one... hope to create a new one... ANY help?

hmm still in my reservice mode.being doing a lot of new things.but still hope it end soon and can get back to work.


mood been up and down. when it get quiet then it get louder..
but still thinking.. still pondering sometimes even it hurts. really want it to go away.. get out of my head!!!!

first i want to Congrats.. to my buddy KERN for his ROM today on 7 march 2008..
finally he got married.. know him for so long..since i know him at my sec sch till now.. long rite!!! Now at a blink of eyes he getting married liao.. Bro , have fun and really take care of ur wife , Faith. She will be a good companion for you and a good lover.. so Love her as u know best. will miss the days we run in the race together.. getting scold at the same time and cry too..

really cherish our friendship.... Sorry i cannot be there.. got reservice(ICT) crap rite..


feeling sad and happy.. mixed feeling...

Sun and Choir singing the Olympics Anthem.






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can see familiar faces????

jiaiyou jiayou

wee hours blogging...

was reading people's blog.. and seem that people are looking for something and really believe in it.. of course it make me think ... and really feel life is so much more loud and quiet in the same time.. loud in the voice of people around me shouting their views and quiet in my heart to hear GOD's voice..

really do not understand, why i am still angry or sad?.. ask myself what u really want?
in the eyes of people what am i ??? it really does not matters now... now matters is Here in my life . where am i... maybe becos now i am in a crossroad.. when i finally pick myself up now.. going to a new CG and thinking of a new ministry.. being christian for so long really does not prepare me well for this..
in cg learn on Faith, Faithfulness, Fruitiness. yeah sometimes think that i need faith so much now and faithfulness has weaken and no fruit now..
my church mate say take time .. not to rush... sometimes i really want to be back normal again real quick.. real fast... see that joy that i misplaced

looking in the past for answer or advice? just silent.. no sound .. no voice...
Present so confused...
future unknown...

so in the end TRust GOD ... is it the right way ?