lost my mind

today was kern going for his two yrs stint at tawian .. went to see him off.. was sad that he was leaving... one less person to talk to.

i am so discourage today... it just happen... i ask GOd to forgive me and my action..

Really need to get out of it... was coping well but it just broke... but i want to keep fighting... Lord help!!!... in a dilemma for very long.. or confused...
sometimes i ask GOd why happen to me, is it to teach me something or letting me challenge my character...
in my mind it just like a box, dark and cold... Now..

giving up? lost? angry about myself? what going on?

Choices are made each day to bring you to your next day in life.

now i just want to sleep and not wake up...